todae is meh's b/d... hehe!! happy b/d shortie=D dunno when then can celebrate for u bt it will come=D

sch hv been alright.. the worst part has yet to come.. so brace urself 2gather and face it...

smtings are better left unsaid.. facing it on my own...

wish i had some1 to talk to.. bt jux cant find ani... facing my giants... ARGH~!!!!!!!!!!

i guess after all... its best to keep my mouth shut..

nthing nice and gd comes out frm my mouth...

i'm reali sorry...

I, cant find ani word to describe e feeling nw...

worst then being reject...

i hope tings will be the way it was before..nt totally... without me shooting my mouth.. or atleast near the same...

you've been a close, respected person tt i looked up to ever since i set foot in poly... never forget those days when u help me with my fndb queries.. even when u are tt freaking busy wif ur own.. u still help me.. my opsy assignment, letting me to ur hse and helping me.. all the assignments... you've been more then a friend... a freaking close 1... and i'm such a bastard....

i'm sorry... seriously sorry for all the tings tt i have done..

and for all the tings tt u hv done... a million thanks i send....

updates...

Firstly and most importantly... dad is "fine"? cause the doctors dun dare to comments on the result.. then send to U.S de doct to see.. bt they also dun dare 100% sae its nt a tumor.. the most is 95% sure..so going to see a professor soon mum making the appointments.. hopefully nth is wrong..

life sucks.. esp sch life..it been mdbs for the whole week..its freaking stressful to do the FREAKING ERD la..-.-" well... i gt alot of tings to do man.. MDBS,OPSY,CMSK,WWNK,PS.. is like.. haix... all due soon.. and after tt... exams... life = no life... piece of shit.. crappy poly life... bt i sm wt love being in stress..!! hahahax... bt nt tis much=x i will o bersek... lol's..

nxt is yang lin got into the imagine cup 08 top 12 i believe... can u imagin it.. defeating other 50+ countries to get into top 12.. wth la.. super cool... as expected frm meh meh yeah?=D and finally after much pestering.. i am getting her a watch as she requested!!!.. no surprise=p hahax... bt need shop for it.. so its also stressful.. shopping = sucky, girls stuff= OMG... lol's... bt nvm la..willing to do so=)

went running wif zax and lee wei todae.. i freaking noob.. i need to get back my stamina man.. going running 1 3 4 5 7.. hopfully i can maintain.. lol's.. bt we agreed everi fridae we will meet and run... =D hahahx.. hiong hiong..

alot of tings is see hw important that issue or tt person is to u.. ppl changes.. class splitting apart slowing bt steadily... esp the girls... well..it kinda sad cause i reali cherish the yr 1 r/s we had wif one another.. bt gd ting is tt the guys are still freaking close.. lol's... bt seeing the girls nt joining us for lunch(its ok for me), then slowly it seemed like there is a gap between everibodi... and they will onli approach u to ask u qns on work or i approach them for sweets or wtever jux to speak to them... i dunno.. well.. i love c175... i could hv choosen to go out/hang around wif alot of other grps of frienz aka my SU frienz... my foc/fow freshie...my iitsc frienz.. bt i never went for their outing.. cause c175 is on top of all of them.. so nono.. =) bt still.. i wonder hw c175 will be nxt sem when i am sure some of us will nt be in the same class.. haix.. tis is life.. accept it sucker...

cell grp tml.. haven reali prepare for it.. bt will prepare for it soon.. haix.. and i am feeling like i am of no use... well to a certain extend.. i am jux like smting or sm1 jux to stand in till sm1 better pops up...or jux an acting 1 whom does the sai kang.. i am nt pleased wif sm tings.. bt shall nt talk abt it.. and tings are reali tiring... preparing a BS is nt simple when u are asked to make it more interactive by shi fu... haix.. cracking my brain and i enjoy being a cg member nt a cgl.. cause i do nt have to prepare aniting and learn=) seriously i find tt giving out w/h taking in is nt going to work... (its a thought) sourcing outwards for cg's to attend.. so anibodi wan intro mi to ur cg???=D bt i onli go for BS=D hahahax...

till then... beach ball babes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

got back results... i was nt hapi wif it.. bt atleast it was better then 1.2 de results.. seriously.. atleast i saw improvement... and i shall continue to improve...

2ndly was busy busy wif opsy.. although i was able to cough out my 1 k words.. bt i totally dunno wtf am i doing.. then see teacher.. he sae mine too chim.. and he also knw i dunno alot..so in the end i changed.. and dunno can make it nt.. hopefully can make it.. cause i dun wan to screw up my studies liaox.. fuck me...

nw.. reached home todae and mum told me tt someting wrong wif dad health report.. tommo our family doctor has an appointment wif him... mum sae cfm go see specialist.. i still gt alot to do for him.. i dun wan him to go so fast.. i dunno i alwax tink abt the worst situation.. my dad is a hyp B carrier.. His whole family are.. so it could be a minor situation nw but his kind of condition is like having a time bomb inside his body and whenever whereever it wans, it will just explode and my dad may jux go forever.. i hate tt thought... i am veri sure i am nt mature nt rdy nt prepared nt strong enough to meet or face tt situation.. AND I NEVER WAN TO FACE IT!.. its making me going banana.. i wan him to enjoy life.. i wan him to go on holidae.. while i pay for everytingj.. i wan him to stop working and do tings tt he finally wants...

lord.. into ur hands i commit everyting.. i am nobodi.. i can do nothing... God, grant me the tranquillity to accept the things that i cannot change and the courage to change the things that i can...thank you... thank you...