got back results... i was nt hapi wif it.. bt atleast it was better then 1.2 de results.. seriously.. atleast i saw improvement... and i shall continue to improve...

2ndly was busy busy wif opsy.. although i was able to cough out my 1 k words.. bt i totally dunno wtf am i doing.. then see teacher.. he sae mine too chim.. and he also knw i dunno alot..so in the end i changed.. and dunno can make it nt.. hopefully can make it.. cause i dun wan to screw up my studies liaox.. fuck me...

nw.. reached home todae and mum told me tt someting wrong wif dad health report.. tommo our family doctor has an appointment wif him... mum sae cfm go see specialist.. i still gt alot to do for him.. i dun wan him to go so fast.. i dunno i alwax tink abt the worst situation.. my dad is a hyp B carrier.. His whole family are.. so it could be a minor situation nw but his kind of condition is like having a time bomb inside his body and whenever whereever it wans, it will just explode and my dad may jux go forever.. i hate tt thought... i am veri sure i am nt mature nt rdy nt prepared nt strong enough to meet or face tt situation.. AND I NEVER WAN TO FACE IT!.. its making me going banana.. i wan him to enjoy life.. i wan him to go on holidae.. while i pay for everytingj.. i wan him to stop working and do tings tt he finally wants...

lord.. into ur hands i commit everyting.. i am nobodi.. i can do nothing... God, grant me the tranquillity to accept the things that i cannot change and the courage to change the things that i can...thank you... thank you...